Stay close.
There are two voices I hear in my head. They are similar to the ones described by Henri Nouwen in his book Spiritual Direction (and others.)
One voice says, “Make sure people are ok with you. Be pleasing, impressive, and set yourself up to be loved and respected.” Listening to this voice can set a person up to be a “hyphenated” person. I’m a teacher-counselor. I am a pastor-outdoor leader. I’m a worship leader musician- leader of a non profit. I’m a Christian-person of the world. I am not of this world- very much a part of this world.
If you don’t like a part of me that is a big part of me, I usually have another part of me that should be ok with you. This position in life can curtail the deepest fears that I may not be acceptable, lovable, worthy of relationship.
There is another voice I hear, and I hear it at times when I know it will be loud and clear. These times include times where I listen, times where I engage the Bible, times in the wilderness, times when I observe the beauty of those I love, times when prayer isn’t asking for things- but is more about listening and loving. Here’s what the voice says- “Whatever you do, stay close to the heart of God.” This voice that calls me the son of God, the child of the loving Christ, the target of the Spirit’s support…. it resonates and informs the things I do, whether “hyphenated” or not.
I can work at our new canopy tour in the Buffalo River Valley in the context of staying close. I can listen and counsel all the while I am staying close. I am a father, a husband, a musician- who makes his choices staying close to the heart of God.
Friends- as we work together in exciting new projects like GPS Tulsa, ask me what voice I am listening to. What about you? Is there a voice that resonates with you as an image bearer of God? Does this voice affirm your ability to create, to contribute? Or, is there a voice that keeps you on edge to “conform to the pattern of this world” by goading you to continually please, impress, or position yourself for success. What do you do about that?

